Ever since I found out from my academic advisor that I have less than ten classes left until I get my degree, I've found myself desperately wanting out of Denton. I don't know if this is feeling will soon pass but that appointment was back in March and yet my homesick, trapped in Denton feeling is lingering. I mean there are other factors that contribute to the wanting to get out of here feelings too. Take for instance the fact that I wish I could live by myself in my own apartment. A place that is just like I left it when I come home, where what I say goes and nobody can do or say anything to change that. I want a real job; one where I can make a decent salary and have benefits and insurance. I want a better car that I can depend on to take me where I want without worrying about whether or not I will be stranded.
Am I in a hurry to "grow up" too fast? This past Monday I found myself contemplating that idea and I came to the conclusion that the answer is no. Sure I have rent, car insurance and cell phone bills to pay and groceries and gas to buy but that's nothing compared to some people. At 21 that's what I'm supposed to be doing. I bet some other people would love to be in my shoes that are in worse situations than me. Yet, I don't feel truly independent without a place of my own. That's what can happen when I move back to my hometown. The rents cheaper, its a bigger metro area and I can stop seeing these same people over and over again.
Is this a case of the grass always looks greener on the other side? When I do graduate and I get my own place, am I going to miss college life?
For now, the answer in my mind is a resounding NO.
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Enjoy it while you can - especially if you have close friends in college as it's really hard to keep in touch if your lives go in radically different directions. I found I was lonely and missed the college routine (including being awake/asleep whenever I wanted based on what classes I had that day) once I graduated. Of course, the loneliness was in part due to moving across the country :)
ReplyDeleteWow, you moved across the country? Thats a daring move and I was debating it but now I'm not sure I want to move across the state, because I miss my hometown. I think my hometown is big enough that I can have a bit of distance from my parents when I need it. I dont think I will have much trouble adjusting to a 8 to 5 because I'm always either at work or school during that time. The midday naps stopped after freshman year when I had to get a job.lol
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