Ever since I found out from my academic advisor that I have less than ten classes left until I get my degree, I've found myself desperately wanting out of Denton. I don't know if this is feeling will soon pass but that appointment was back in March and yet my homesick, trapped in Denton feeling is lingering. I mean there are other factors that contribute to the wanting to get out of here feelings too. Take for instance the fact that I wish I could live by myself in my own apartment. A place that is just like I left it when I come home, where what I say goes and nobody can do or say anything to change that. I want a real job; one where I can make a decent salary and have benefits and insurance. I want a better car that I can depend on to take me where I want without worrying about whether or not I will be stranded.
Am I in a hurry to "grow up" too fast? This past Monday I found myself contemplating that idea and I came to the conclusion that the answer is no. Sure I have rent, car insurance and cell phone bills to pay and groceries and gas to buy but that's nothing compared to some people. At 21 that's what I'm supposed to be doing. I bet some other people would love to be in my shoes that are in worse situations than me. Yet, I don't feel truly independent without a place of my own. That's what can happen when I move back to my hometown. The rents cheaper, its a bigger metro area and I can stop seeing these same people over and over again.
Is this a case of the grass always looks greener on the other side? When I do graduate and I get my own place, am I going to miss college life?
For now, the answer in my mind is a resounding NO.
